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CLARITY AND KENO

Posted on April 2, 2013 at 11:02 PM
It is with a heavy heart I share my thoughts and feelings. 
I have had a cold for the past week and as a result have been spending more time at home, resting and trying to get rid of this bug.  I thought I was over it and yesterday I woke up with an excruciating headache, was sick to my stomach, and needed to take another day off work.  It was during this time, I  noticed Keno's difficulty getting up on his own many times throughout the day.  I found myself helping him stand repeatedly  and then he seemed fine.  I checked in with his fabulous Vet, Jim Dickes at Uptown Animal Hospital and discussed this change.  We have been "mindful" of not wanting Keno to be in pain during this journey. I brought up I felt the time was getting closer to euthanise him, but stated, "he still has such an amazing appetite."  Jim encouraged me to look at the whole picture and continue to journal about how Keno's days are.
When I got off the phone, I walked outside with Keno and we immediately encountered one of my favorite neighborhood dogs and his owner.  I shared with the fellow dog owner I had just got off the phone with my Vet and Keno's time may be drawing near.  Tears came to my eyes, as I saw Keno lay down in the grass, while the other dog wanted to play with him.  I could see Keno wanting to play (best player of all time), but his body no longer allows him to.
This morning around 4 a.m. I heard Keno try to get up and he couldn't.  I helped him up and to walk with quite a bit of effort  on both our parts.  I got him back into his comfy bed and went to work.  Once again, leaving work early to see how he was.  Again, like the last time I blogged on 2/19 he was able to get up (with help) when I arrived home this afternoon and enjoyed his walk, albeit a little unsteady at times. 
It is clear to me now...it is time to say good-bye.  It looks like I will schedule his final visit with our favorite Vet for this Friday morning.  It is hard to imagine saying good-bye to him and returning home without him here.  I am grateful for all the support I have in family, friends and, in particular, fellow animal lovers who have traveled this path many times before me.  This will be the first time I will be saying good-bye to a pet.
In the meantime, I continue to be in the moment and enjoy every moment and thank God for all the wonderful years we had together.  Also, I appreciate the clarity being home sick gave me to see the truth of Keno's decline.

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Reply Barbara Smith
12:12 PM on April 3, 2013 
It takes such courage to live, and, let live, and, let die. There is an old John Wayne movie with the title, "True Grit." Always thought that term applied to all of our lives not just gun toting' heroes. Thanks for sharing your Keno moments. You have a good heart - and so does he.
Reply Janet Kasprzycki Ziessow
2:06 PM on April 3, 2013 
The parallels of your journey and mine with Amik are nearly identical. I was there to experience her first vertigo attack and then spent the days home sick myself...doing exactly what you did... The realization that you can't be there 100% of the time to do the heavy lifting, and sleeping with one eye open in case you're needed...that is really that One Point In Time When You Will Know.

Much love I send you to fill that hole in your heart. And I give it 8 months before you're peeking at puppies.... Love my new Leinie!
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It takes such bravery to live, and, let live, and, let kick the bucket. There is an old John Wayne film with the title, "Genuine Grit." Always suspected that term connected to the majority of our lives not simply firearm toting' saints. A debt of gratitude is in order for sharing your Keno minutes. You have a decent heart - thus does he. Thank you so much.
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